as you know, modelling is my life.. its my passion and where i feel i truly belong. I'm very much an edgy model although can adapt to moods and expressions well, i would say my main love is the more intense looks as really draws you in to know more of the story. but who am i? you're the viewers, so you are the judges
modelling is a tricky job, i have to be honest i do this 24/7 i never fully switch off, i dont have a huge social life outside of this and you have to keep focused! thick skinned also, i never believed it until recently that the industry can be cruel at times as I've made so so many friends and seen so many places... grown with so many people... I'm a big softy, always have been always will be... i like helping others get further in their career and always share all my contacts and that itself is a blessing and a curse (but ill never stop), people backstab, say nasty things, even at castings they compare girls and put them down.. it can be tough!
i started modelling at a very terrible time in my life, I DIDNT EVEN LIKE MY PHOTO BEING TAKEN... i was beaten up quite badly by a gang of people, bullies are awful! i started this to do photography and ended up in front of the camera instead as i was fascinated, never did i think i had any type of potential .. and i still think i didn't at all... my first shoots was with a group of photographers all expecting a professional experienced model, i obviously wasn't and smiled nervously!? the group took well to me and i believe felt a little sorry for me :$ and invited me back , but since then i wanted to learn lighting, face shapes, poses etc... it was a huge boost!
since then, i got recommended around, i had to do lots of Tests as known as TF shoots, for about a year, i wish i had invested into a high quality photographer from the offset to save time but at the same time i appreciate the experience and determination that came from pestering people for shoots ;)
I've grown so much, to work with the best in the industry.. i can't tell you how i never truly believed i would but kept working for it! I've had the best time, I'm still buzzing from seeing everyones creativity... i still get my moments of self doubt (mental illness) or whatever people want it to be called, things from my past make me who i am today, I'm strong but i also still hold onto the badness that made me push through to live.
we all go through something in life no matter what it is, illness, losing people, bullies, life challenges itself is terrible!
anyway i can go on and on. but thats a snippet, well a long read already of me and my journey.
FINALLY check out these images... they even made the front cover of sheeba magazine which I'm incredibly proud of :)
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